I was blinded now I see...

Recently I feel empty inside my heart....I kinda lost in a remote place that nobody were there for me.

I used to be a person who lives in a nice place with millions of people around me and some lovely people that support and encourage me in this life. I do a lot of things for them and for me..especially for all the people that I love, but now I don't know...I'm kinda lost and feel like walking on the endless road where there's nobody but me.

At the first I thought that I feel this feeling it's because of the person that I love is far away from me, I miss her a lot and I kinda lost without her. But as the time goes by I understand the truth that I just miss her because our relationship is going little bit farther physically lately and even if I see her now...I think that the emptiness in my heart is only filled a little cause there's a space in my heart that still empty, in fact it was a huge one. So, I have a huge hole in my heart...

After I think and pray for several times in this time of trouble, I find an answer that THE RIGHT PERSON that can fill and heal my heart is JESUS CHRIST. Once I ever prayed to Him to make me feel lost and can't do anything if I got too far away from Him, and I think this is the time...I already got too far away from Him. -_-"

I was blinded by the love that I have for her and used it as a cover to do things that I'm not supposed to do to her if I really love her. But now as I see the truth and can see things clearly I really regret what I've done to her. Then I pray to Him, asking for His forgiveness, His compassion, and His love for me to lead me back in His way. I got distracted too far in my own things, I only spend a little time for Him and lately I've done a lot of things that made Him sad.

LET JESUS CHRIST BE THE KING IN YOUR HEART AND LET HIM BE THE ONE AND ONLY RULER IN YOUR LIFE...!!! YOU WON'T REGRET IT...CAUSE HE WILL NEVER LEAVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT. :'D

I TELL YOU THIS SO THAT YOU GOT THE SAME HAPPINESS AND JOY THAT I GOT FROM HIM...

And If you're reading this blog, it's not a coincidence..It's God's will. ^^

Have a blessed life and keep impacting others...Jesus loves you.

IMPACT...!!!

I am one of 4 brothers. I have a twin brother, and two elder brothers that also a twins. :) Hahahaha

Isn't it great to have such a strong healthy relationship like that?! I learn a lot in this family, especially about brotherhood. ^^

I'll be specific in this IMPACT matter. I'm gonna tell you about my twin brother, his name is Ivan. He's a person that I reckon as a good leader & a good brother which is on progress to become a great one, but in the same time he could be an irritating, cocky, and bossy person (this things often made me say/do a bad things too to him). xD wkwkwk

Even if I also often being a jerk and an irritating person as well, but somehow I learn a lot of things from him, he such an inspiration beside my died grand father that inspire me so much. I learn to be a person that have to hold myself, my emotion so that I can be a better person that more mature in the way I think, say, do, and react to things. :')

And as long as I know, I'm the one who's learning from him. But about few months ago, I just knew that he's learning something from me...not directly but somehow he learn to be a patient person and some other things by facing me everyday. xD wkwkwkwk

Over 21 years that I live with him, I just knew that I can give something good to someone even if it's not directly... ^^

So...what I'm trying to say by writing this is YOU can do it too!!! YOU CAN BRING IMPACT to OTHER PEOPLE'S LIFE BY DOING A LOT OF THINGS OR BY LESS DOING.. :')

Try to give hope on someone that lose it, have a faith in yourself and others. You'll never knew if what you've done change someone's life..

Have a blessed life...Jesus Loves You. ^^